Farewell Letter: All The Things I Never Told You

I don’t know when I started to lose you,  or how it all happened so that today we say goodbye. The only thing I can feel is your absence, and a whole wave of feelings.

Maybe I didn’t lose you, but my feelings drifted apart due to circumstances that I still couldn’t figure out and decipher.

I don’t understand how the heat can turn to freezing cold in just a few moments. 

When we lose someone or disconnect from a person, an unfathomable void forms inside our body.

This person being what he is, he is unique and can never be replaced. This is exactly what is happening to me with you.

I still have so much to do, so much to tell you.  But when I see you in front of me, a knot forms in my throat and I can’t find my words.

As you left, I could not keep the promise I made to myself to unite my life with yours so that we can make the big trip together.

It seems my stop came a bit before we both imagined.

What is certain is that I do not regret anything that we have been able to do, say or feel together until now.

I have lived unique moments with you, I have felt extraordinary things and we have done authentic things together.

No one had ever loved me so sincerely and caringly like you.

No one had ever taught me that love is built, and that the important thing in life is to find someone to do it with, with whom you can imagine spending your entire life. Opportunities like this only present themselves if we go looking for them.

I would like to thank you for having accompanied me, for teaching me so much and for allowing me to discover the world with you. 

One thing is for sure, you made me a much better person. Thanks to you I was able to begin to discover myself and to come into contact with myself in a different way. And this faculty is invaluable.

I may never have told you …

The things that I have never told you are the things that I have never been able to express in words.

Things relating to feelings, love, tenderness and longing, which I feel deep within myself.

I am telling you today all these things that I never told you, but that you knew and that you respected.

Not a day in my life has gone by without my being grateful to have found you on my path and to have known you.

Because even though we are not always the same, you are the most important person I have ever known, the most sincere and the most genuine.

We have traveled cross roads and highways together, because we have built our history on our true emotions.

We have learned that love is not just a feeling, it is like a kind of internal explosion that leads us to discover the essence of the person who knows how to look you in the eye and speak to you in silence. .

We spoke the same language for years, but ended up not understanding it. It is for this reason that today I apologize to you .

But I want you to continue to be who you are, from the tips of your toes to the bottom of your feelings.

Continue to love with the simplicity that characterizes you and that is so pure. I will always be there, I promise you. In a different way, than that which will be allowed to me by my feelings and by you.

But I will never forget you. You are part of me, of my history, of my life and of my being.

In me, there is a part of you, and I suppose that in you, there is something of me.

Maybe we will not continue our journey together, but it has been so good and so genuine, so sincere and so caring, that you will always be someone important in my life, my inflection point.

And even if it is a goodbye letter that I send you, I do not prefer to end it by saying goodbye to you, because it is something that is impossible for me.

You will continue to be in me in many ways, because when you discover someone and let them in with their life, it is impossible to erase the traces they will leave there. 

You gave me so much love that I take today with me. 

I leave you, too, wrapped in the hollow of this letter.